Worrying

[annabtg]

...I've been typing for ten minutes now but I can't really find what I want to say. My thoughts are so clear and at the same time, so jumbled up.

Maybe I just want to talk to someone, period. Someone who does not have any issues at the moment, so they can listen to mine. It has been my preferred way of dealing with my issues for the longest time now.

The tricky part is, I know what my problem is: I worry too much, about things I shouldn't be worrying. I know the advice I'm going to get: Stop worrying. And it's useless, in the sense that I cannot put it into use: Worrying doesn't have an on/off switch. You either worry or you don't.

It all stems from my confidence issues. I'm currently worrying about things I've always been unsure about. And this is a worry completely different than the "OMG how am I ever going to finish this essay?!?!?" kind of worry - because deep inside, I trust my abilities to finish schoolwork in time, so worrying and complaining about it is more of a motivational and stress-relieving factor. (Indeed, whining serves a purpose, I firmly believe that!)

My current worries, though, are the kind that hits me right at my Achilles' heel. Which is why I can't turn it to productive and motivational worry; I can't take advantage of it, because it eats at me, and I spend too much energy healing the wounds it causes to make something good of it.

(I feel silly using all these metaphors; it looks as if I'm trying to showcase what I'm saying as really deep stuff.)

My point? ...Well, I'm not sure I have one. Just wanted to share these thoughts, I guess. And now I need to wrap this up real quick and go to bed, so no fancy epilogue.

Hugs,
Anna.

Comments

[laramoon.livejournal.com]

*hugs* You know you can always "bug me" when I'm logged on to MSN -- I'll listen, no matter what you wanna say. :)

[annabtg.livejournal.com]

***hugs back*** Thank you!

...I guess my problem with saying this stuff in an one-on-one conversation is that I'd feel like forcing the other person to say something. And there's not really something to say here, so...

Still, thanks for being here. :) Maybe sometime I'll need to take up on the offer :)

Hugs,
Anna.

[laramoon.livejournal.com]

aww! I can totally just send you little hugging emotes and just let you whine away as long as you need. I'm not really good at advice, but I've lived through a lot of stuff, and there's a lot that I understand/can relate to, so anything you'd want to discuss is perfectly fine - I'll listen and offer whatever support you feel you need. (and, you know.. I'm totally unbiased.)

[annabtg.livejournal.com]

Thanks for that. :)

See ya,
Anna.

[un-sedentary.livejournal.com]

The tricky part is, I know what my problem is: I worry too much, about things I shouldn't be worrying. I know the advice I'm going to get: Stop worrying. And it's useless, in the sense that I cannot put it into use: Worrying doesn't have an on/off switch. You either worry or you don't.

I can relate to that so much. I worry about things that seem ridiculous as well.

[laramoon.livejournal.com]

It's never ridiculous - if it has you worried, it's cause it hits a chord somewhere. And that's perfectly normal and human.

Things are very relative and it's not because something is unimportant or benign to someone that they should be to everyone else as well. Don't let others convince you that your worries are ridiculous...

[annabtg.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I'm with you on that. I've thought about it too.

Still, there *is* such a thing as worrying too much. Everything has a limit. xD

See ya,
Anna :)

[viqii.livejournal.com]

i'm here.... cuando quieras hablar, estoy para escucharte cuanto tiempo quieras y necesites.
un beso y que estes bien.

[annabtg.livejournal.com]

Gracias, Vicky. :) Te lo agradezco muchisimo.

Un beso,
Anna :)

[disorientedly.livejournal.com]

Oh, sweetheart. ♥ I want to give you an enormous hug right now because no one deserves that shoulder more than you but you know you can always talk to your flist, yeah? We're here for you - I'm totally available if you ever need to talk. I can completely sympathize with the whole stressing thing - my mom keeps telling me not to but come on, it's not like I can control it :|

I love you, I know I haven't talked to you much and I'm never online, but you can always email me or drop a comment on my LiveJournal if you need anything. Let us know how things go :| I hope everythings gets better ♥

[annabtg.livejournal.com]

You are the sweetest thing ever, Ailey ***hugs*** Thank you so much.

♥ ♥ ♥

Anna :)

[pgwfolc.livejournal.com]

No issues? Can't help you there. I don't know anyone like that, least of all me.

But...

Always willing to listen. Go on for as long as you like. I'll understand. And I won't judge. And, if I have anything useful to say, I'll say it. If not, I won't pretend otherwise.

I've got nothing but time. I care about you, I respect you, and I trust you.

If you see me and you need to talk, don't hesitate. If you need to talk and you don't see me... my inbox is always open to you. You need to actually talk, that can be arranged, too.

I don't know if I'm the right person for the job, but anything I can do... let me know.

[annabtg.livejournal.com]

Thank you for that :)

See ya,
Anna.

confidence issues...

[jrider264re.livejournal.com]

One thing you should NOT be having is confidence issues. You have simply got way too much going for you in every area. Lean on your friends Hon...that's what makes them friends. Anything I can do, or not do, to help, just ask.

Re: confidence issues...

[annabtg.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the advice and everything! :)

See ya,
Anna.

[doranwen.livejournal.com]

I agree with Paul--don't know anyone with no issues. And I must confess I have been so busy lately I haven't been chatting on IM much. But if I happen to be on and respond, I'm always willing to listen and hug and whatever, y'know? *hugs*

[annabtg.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I know. :) ***hugs back*** Thanks for that!

See ya,
Anna.

[cyad.livejournal.com]

I can totally relate since I also worry too much and sometimes make a mountain out of a grain of sand. And get anxious for no reason. You can call me emotional, 'cause that's what it's all about.

But truth is, I think it's part of you,thus your personnality, and that if you didn't worry, you ouldn't be so good at what you do. aka not the perfectionnist type, not the caring, friendly, wise type...not the Anna we love!

so, er...I know it's sometimes hard to carry on with it but, never stop worrying. Just try to worry less often. And learn to live with it. :)

[cyad.livejournal.com]

and, did I say *hugs* *madly squishing*

You know the mail, msn and phone number, right?

*re-hugs*

[annabtg.livejournal.com]

Thanks a whole lot for the advice and the hugs! ***hugs back***

Take care + LOL,
Anna :)

[cyad.livejournal.com]

Honestly, if you wanna talk about it, I got full open ears, homemade cake, tea, stack of tissues if needed and phused animals that can also make efficient punching balls ;p

LOL+TGC (take good care) of you, too!

*****hugs*****

[clockworkplum.livejournal.com]

Um, perhaps if you were more specific I could try to give you an advice, if I knew any...

Just wanted to tell you that if you ever wish to talk and I am on Messanger, I am ready always to listen to you carefully :)

*hugs*

[annabtg.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I know I was being quite vague... I didn't want to make others overanalyze with me :P Thanks for offering an ear :)

Hugs,
Anna.

[timetraveled.livejournal.com]

Anna! You can talk to me anytime; just drop me a line on MSN or something. I promise I'll listen. And luckily I've got no issues at the moment (not that I know of, lol) so feel free to vent to me as much as you like to me.

Schmooooooooze to the power of infinty ♥

[annabtg.livejournal.com]

Thanks for that! :) *schmooooooooooooozes back*

Hugs,
Anna ♥