Not again...
Apr. 2nd, 2006 12:43 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
annabtgYou know that Lupin/Tonks angsty fic I was working on?
I finished it yesterday. I didn't have another magnificent strike of inspiration, just was in the mood for writing the rest. So I did. It took me hours, but that's not the problem. The problem is, it was a particular quote that inspired this story. I had even thought of where to go from there. But I couldn't make the beginning of my story to lead there. In the end, I managed to make the quote fit in, but the dialogue following it had to change. I hate it when this happens - I start off with an idea that the Muse takes to a different direction, and then the original idea must go to waste. *sigh* And it was such a good idea...
Not to mention, there's something wrong about this story. It feels wrong. And it's not just the stressing-out-before-I-post thingy. I can think of a few reasons this may be due to:
- The fact that it didn't go as I had planned it to. Not just the starting idea; I had a great idea for the end as well. But while I have it in my head like a chain of words, images and emotions indefinitely intertwined, I can't put it down to words. Part of it is really clear, part of it is fuzzy. And I can't make it work.
- The fact that it is angsty. Now, I'm all for angsty romances, but maybe I'm not in the mood for it right now.
- The timing. It's![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
rt_challenge time, so why aren't I working on one of the prompts? Maybe I'm feeling guilty deep inside.
- The fact that I haven't been able to convey the image I wanted to. See, this story takes place in a playground. I've pictured one of the playgrounds I used to go to as a kid, with only a couple of changes; Remus and Tonks fit right there, and I can see the whole scene in my head in every little detail. But, there's the problem; I've been unable to show this to the reader. Truth is, while I always have clear images of everything in my head when I write, I've never managed to incorporate these images into a story. I'd blame it to my insufficient English, but I've never been able to do that in Greek either. I guess it takes some kind of special talent to describe images, which I don't have. But the problem isn't just that I can't describe the images, but also that I can't make them part of the story. Every time I try to describe a landscape, or a person, it feels... off. Instead of drawing the reader to the story, it alienates him. And in a story like this one, an image would have fitted like a glove.
God, how I wish I could draw.
I hope I won't be forced to leave this story rot in my hard drive - it started off so well... Maybe I'll need somebody's help with it. We'll see. For now, I must stop procrastinating and study a bit for school.
See ya,
Anna.
I finished it yesterday. I didn't have another magnificent strike of inspiration, just was in the mood for writing the rest. So I did. It took me hours, but that's not the problem. The problem is, it was a particular quote that inspired this story. I had even thought of where to go from there. But I couldn't make the beginning of my story to lead there. In the end, I managed to make the quote fit in, but the dialogue following it had to change. I hate it when this happens - I start off with an idea that the Muse takes to a different direction, and then the original idea must go to waste. *sigh* And it was such a good idea...
Not to mention, there's something wrong about this story. It feels wrong. And it's not just the stressing-out-before-I-post thingy. I can think of a few reasons this may be due to:
- The fact that it didn't go as I had planned it to. Not just the starting idea; I had a great idea for the end as well. But while I have it in my head like a chain of words, images and emotions indefinitely intertwined, I can't put it down to words. Part of it is really clear, part of it is fuzzy. And I can't make it work.
- The fact that it is angsty. Now, I'm all for angsty romances, but maybe I'm not in the mood for it right now.
- The timing. It's
rt_challenge time, so why aren't I working on one of the prompts? Maybe I'm feeling guilty deep inside.- The fact that I haven't been able to convey the image I wanted to. See, this story takes place in a playground. I've pictured one of the playgrounds I used to go to as a kid, with only a couple of changes; Remus and Tonks fit right there, and I can see the whole scene in my head in every little detail. But, there's the problem; I've been unable to show this to the reader. Truth is, while I always have clear images of everything in my head when I write, I've never managed to incorporate these images into a story. I'd blame it to my insufficient English, but I've never been able to do that in Greek either. I guess it takes some kind of special talent to describe images, which I don't have. But the problem isn't just that I can't describe the images, but also that I can't make them part of the story. Every time I try to describe a landscape, or a person, it feels... off. Instead of drawing the reader to the story, it alienates him. And in a story like this one, an image would have fitted like a glove.
God, how I wish I could draw.
I hope I won't be forced to leave this story rot in my hard drive - it started off so well... Maybe I'll need somebody's help with it. We'll see. For now, I must stop procrastinating and study a bit for school.
See ya,
Anna.
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wrong, really? I'm not buying it!
Date: 2006-04-03 08:05 am (UTC)feel free to, and have a nice week,
Carole (trying to fight depression and feeling useless and good for nothing)
Re: wrong, really? I'm not buying it!
Date: 2006-04-03 03:28 pm (UTC)See ya,
Anna :)
Re: wrong, really? I'm not buying it!
Date: 2006-04-03 03:29 pm (UTC)Re: wrong, really? I'm not buying it!
Date: 2006-04-04 07:22 am (UTC)and not better but: loads with work so, that kind of size down wallowing in self-pity time! ;)
enjoy the day,
LOL+TC
Carole
Re: wrong, really? I'm not buying it!
Date: 2006-04-04 08:08 am (UTC)Oh! and thanks for the hug!
and your fox's too cute! Wanted to nickname him "Socks" 'cause it's a red fox and there's this Rex Sox baseball team... lousy, I know. Er. going back to work. Yeah.
LOL,
Carole
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Date: 2006-04-14 06:10 pm (UTC)Be patient, the right time will come along and your story flourish. And if not, we'll find you a QuickDraw quill.
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Date: 2006-04-14 09:43 pm (UTC)See ya,
Anna.