Finals update #6
Jun. 1st, 2006 02:35 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
annabtgThe Advanced Physics exam is over, and I've scored about 90-95%. Which should feel great, except that it doesn't, because this past couple of days I've been feeling awful. I'm guessing it's kind of a stress-induced manic depression.
It's mainly because of my parents' behaviour. You see, I was feeling really unsure about Adv. Physics, plus I couldn't study too much because... it was Adv. Physics! Not at all my favourite. So what did my parents do about that?
- Tuesday, 6.30 p.m.. Dad comes into my room to see whether I'm studying. Finds me online.
- Tuesday, 7 p.m.. Dad comes into my room again to see whether I'm studying. Finds me online.
- Tuesday, 7.30 p.m.. *Repeat*
Then I told him I had done a good revision three weeks ago for an exam my evening classes had given me, so I wouldn't need too much studying. He asked how much I'd scored at that exam. I told him it was about 85-90%. Only then did he stop coming over.
God, he's usually all right, because he knows I study regularly and do my homework. But that's what made it all the more annoying. I'm not used to being treated as if I'm a lazy bum.
Plus, he and Mom spent Wednesday discussing how much I should score if I want to get into Medicine, how the other kids have been scoring, stuff like that.
HELLO? I've said I DON'T KNOW what I want to study and that Medicine is just one of the things I'm considering. But because it's the more prestigious of all the choices I have, that means we have to calculate what I need to get there all the time, obviously. NOT. The scores won't be out until July, for crying out loud, but even knowing your score doesn't mean you know where you can get. These finals are a contest, basically; the highest your score is, the highest you get in the priority list for choosing what you want to study. So what if I'm a little lower and the available positions in Medicine are over by the time it's my turn? I'll go for Biology, or Chemistry. And they seemed to be all right with that during the whole year, so WHY stress me out now? Is it really all that necessary? ARGH.
To top it all, when I came back home and told my mom how I did at the exam, she started shrilling in joy. a) I HATE her shrilling. It's insufferable. b) Her being so joyful makes me think it would have been the end of the world if I had scored less. NEWSFLASH! It wouldn't have. And at the end of the day, it's me who'll get to the university, not her, and even if I hadn't scored as I have, so far, I know I'd have scored enough to be able to study something I'd like, because that's me, and that's what I do. I always perform well at exams and finals. So what's to worry about?
(Yes, yes, I know. They care about me. Sure. But that's not the way to show it.)
On the bright side, only Advanced Chemistry to go! The exam's on Saturday morning, and this subject is the last one that counts in my university access grade. Then, on Thursday, start my other finals, the ones for graduating from high school. Those are easier, of course :)
Hmm, supposedly I'm really good at Advanced Chemistry, but right now I'm not feeling very confident. See what stress can do, folks? Makes you lose faith in yourself. But that's not the way to go.
/me repeats: I can do it. I can do it. I can do it.
Whatever. I'm off to take a nap, folks; I have class at 6. p.m....
See ya,
Anna.
It's mainly because of my parents' behaviour. You see, I was feeling really unsure about Adv. Physics, plus I couldn't study too much because... it was Adv. Physics! Not at all my favourite. So what did my parents do about that?
- Tuesday, 6.30 p.m.. Dad comes into my room to see whether I'm studying. Finds me online.
- Tuesday, 7 p.m.. Dad comes into my room again to see whether I'm studying. Finds me online.
- Tuesday, 7.30 p.m.. *Repeat*
Then I told him I had done a good revision three weeks ago for an exam my evening classes had given me, so I wouldn't need too much studying. He asked how much I'd scored at that exam. I told him it was about 85-90%. Only then did he stop coming over.
God, he's usually all right, because he knows I study regularly and do my homework. But that's what made it all the more annoying. I'm not used to being treated as if I'm a lazy bum.
Plus, he and Mom spent Wednesday discussing how much I should score if I want to get into Medicine, how the other kids have been scoring, stuff like that.
HELLO? I've said I DON'T KNOW what I want to study and that Medicine is just one of the things I'm considering. But because it's the more prestigious of all the choices I have, that means we have to calculate what I need to get there all the time, obviously. NOT. The scores won't be out until July, for crying out loud, but even knowing your score doesn't mean you know where you can get. These finals are a contest, basically; the highest your score is, the highest you get in the priority list for choosing what you want to study. So what if I'm a little lower and the available positions in Medicine are over by the time it's my turn? I'll go for Biology, or Chemistry. And they seemed to be all right with that during the whole year, so WHY stress me out now? Is it really all that necessary? ARGH.
To top it all, when I came back home and told my mom how I did at the exam, she started shrilling in joy. a) I HATE her shrilling. It's insufferable. b) Her being so joyful makes me think it would have been the end of the world if I had scored less. NEWSFLASH! It wouldn't have. And at the end of the day, it's me who'll get to the university, not her, and even if I hadn't scored as I have, so far, I know I'd have scored enough to be able to study something I'd like, because that's me, and that's what I do. I always perform well at exams and finals. So what's to worry about?
(Yes, yes, I know. They care about me. Sure. But that's not the way to show it.)
On the bright side, only Advanced Chemistry to go! The exam's on Saturday morning, and this subject is the last one that counts in my university access grade. Then, on Thursday, start my other finals, the ones for graduating from high school. Those are easier, of course :)
Hmm, supposedly I'm really good at Advanced Chemistry, but right now I'm not feeling very confident. See what stress can do, folks? Makes you lose faith in yourself. But that's not the way to go.
/me repeats: I can do it. I can do it. I can do it.
Whatever. I'm off to take a nap, folks; I have class at 6. p.m....
See ya,
Anna.
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Date: 2006-06-01 05:41 pm (UTC)Thanks for the encouragement!
See ya,
Anna.