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annabtgRe: yesterday's entry.
To those who had the time to leave comments before I disabled them - I read them, I took them into consideration and I have them saved for future reference. But I won't be replying. I don't think I can find anything to say. Truth is, whenever I think about these matters I get too pessimistic, I can't even find it in myself to say "thanks". A "thanks" means that the words you read meant something to you, made you feel better in some way. But right now, the only thing that makes me feel better is not thinking about it.
I realize I come off as extremely rude right now, but I don't want you guys to waste your time on me by giving me advice when I'm not in the state of mind to appreciate it. It's not fair. I'd rather chat to anyone of you on MSN about some random thing or other - but I'm not going to start a conversation because I don't want to inflict my presence on anyone. And in the future, if I want to rant, I won't leave comments enabled unless I am sure I can find it in myself to appreciate them as they deserve to be appreciated.
Please understand that I have nothing against you all. Quite the opposite; you are all great friends, and this is why I'm posting this. I do need the presence of my friends around me, I just can't bear to discuss my problems right now. I can only *rant* about them. Listening to advice will only make me feel worse, because I know my mind will just ignore you, and you guys don't deserve that. I'm here for anything but that.
If you still want to say something, you can do it here.
Sorry for everything.
See ya,
Anna.
To those who had the time to leave comments before I disabled them - I read them, I took them into consideration and I have them saved for future reference. But I won't be replying. I don't think I can find anything to say. Truth is, whenever I think about these matters I get too pessimistic, I can't even find it in myself to say "thanks". A "thanks" means that the words you read meant something to you, made you feel better in some way. But right now, the only thing that makes me feel better is not thinking about it.
I realize I come off as extremely rude right now, but I don't want you guys to waste your time on me by giving me advice when I'm not in the state of mind to appreciate it. It's not fair. I'd rather chat to anyone of you on MSN about some random thing or other - but I'm not going to start a conversation because I don't want to inflict my presence on anyone. And in the future, if I want to rant, I won't leave comments enabled unless I am sure I can find it in myself to appreciate them as they deserve to be appreciated.
Please understand that I have nothing against you all. Quite the opposite; you are all great friends, and this is why I'm posting this. I do need the presence of my friends around me, I just can't bear to discuss my problems right now. I can only *rant* about them. Listening to advice will only make me feel worse, because I know my mind will just ignore you, and you guys don't deserve that. I'm here for anything but that.
If you still want to say something, you can do it here.
Sorry for everything.
See ya,
Anna.
