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Ponderings
Sep. 30th, 2006 05:53 pmJust something that I've been thinking about for a very, very long time and I wanted to share.
I feel that my mind has become lazy. I feel less inclined to read through things that might interest me, but are long and written in English (e.g. Wikipedia entries, threads with subjects such as 'How to improve your writing', stuff like that). Also, I don't have the courage to sit down and write a detailed reply to something like the above. I have to pressure myself to do it - if I do it at all.
This goes along with my general, recent non-reading attitude. For the past - year? two years? - I read much less than I used to (both original fiction and fanfic).
The only reason I can find for it is that I had to study a lot for school this past couple of years. Granted, I didn't do the studying others did, but still, it was a lot. And since studying involves reading, I'm thinking that it either gave me a feeling of 'I want to do something different in my spare time' (overdose?) or, since I had to replace some of my spare-time reading with studying, I grew out of it somehow.
Whatever it is, I used to have fun reading and writing. And now a big part of this fun has been taken away from me, and I feel it's all because of me and my head. It's making me feel like an idiot :( Not to mention, I'm afraid it might grow worse, and extend itself to LJ, emails, or make me want to give up reading and writing fanfic entirely :(
I'm not sure there's a solution for it, so I'm not expecting you to jump up with advice. Just felt like sharing.
I'm off to get dressed now - going to meet with a friend.
Talk to you soon ♥
I feel that my mind has become lazy. I feel less inclined to read through things that might interest me, but are long and written in English (e.g. Wikipedia entries, threads with subjects such as 'How to improve your writing', stuff like that). Also, I don't have the courage to sit down and write a detailed reply to something like the above. I have to pressure myself to do it - if I do it at all.
This goes along with my general, recent non-reading attitude. For the past - year? two years? - I read much less than I used to (both original fiction and fanfic).
The only reason I can find for it is that I had to study a lot for school this past couple of years. Granted, I didn't do the studying others did, but still, it was a lot. And since studying involves reading, I'm thinking that it either gave me a feeling of 'I want to do something different in my spare time' (overdose?) or, since I had to replace some of my spare-time reading with studying, I grew out of it somehow.
Whatever it is, I used to have fun reading and writing. And now a big part of this fun has been taken away from me, and I feel it's all because of me and my head. It's making me feel like an idiot :( Not to mention, I'm afraid it might grow worse, and extend itself to LJ, emails, or make me want to give up reading and writing fanfic entirely :(
I'm not sure there's a solution for it, so I'm not expecting you to jump up with advice. Just felt like sharing.
I'm off to get dressed now - going to meet with a friend.
Talk to you soon ♥
